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The Guardian Photoshoot Series (continued) January 21, 2019 11:30

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So in love with these shots from The Guardian photoshoot series with photographer Yiaz Yang.

Photography: Yiaz Yang
Muse: Jessica Dru (Jesdru) and Bryan Forrest
Dress: Michelle Hebert
Wings: Firefly Path
Sword/leather armor: Bryan Forrest
Sovereign Armor: Lumecluster
Location: The Forrest Manor
Creative partners: Hands to the Wheel and Creature Habits

See more photography on Yiaz Yang's website.

Or you can see more photos from my previous blog post here.

<3 Melissa

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2018 Year in Review: On almost giving up, finding community & owning my path (+ a Phoenix Gauntlet update) December 30, 2018 10:00

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What this blog post covers:

If you’re new here, catch up by checking out these important armor design announcements:

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2018 has been a pretty wild ride. Here are some of my memorable moments:

But throughout 2018, I felt like I wanted to give up on Lumecluster. Sounds crazy, right?

Long time readers know that, even though I’m always able to get my work done, I also have some pretty severe anxiety and perfectionism. I’ve written a lot about my fears and self doubts and it’s also a message that is deeply tied to the meaning behind all of my artwork.

I thought tackling it in my masks and armor would help me feel braver and stronger (and sometimes I did find solace in my work). But in 2018, I felt more fragile than ever despite the empowering armor I was striving to create…because I was utterly burnt out.


Photography by Yiazyang — Model, costume, sword by Bryan Forrest — Location at The Forrest Manor — Creative partners Lilly B. Haven and Creature of Habit —– We all jokingly called this the “dirt prince” mainly because he was actually covered in a lot of dirt, haha. He was playing a worn and ragged warrior, which I guess fit a lot of how I felt throughout 2018.

Since 2014 (along with another company my sisters and I have been running since 2010), I have been working seven days a week without taking vacations. My “breaks” included meals and sleeping. I even deprived myself of fun activities because I thought I didn’t deserve them if I didn’t feel like I accomplished enough. And if I did take time off to do something else, it needed to be productive and useful in some way. I know…this is an unhealthy lifestyle that can really destroy creativity. So, why did I do it?

Because I felt guilty.

Guilty for creating “carefree” art when other people were doing “real work.”
Guilty for finding some joy in creating things that the people around me thought was “useless.”
Guilty for pursuing something I loved when other people “didn’t have that luxury.”

Yes, that’s what some of the people in my real life in New York were telling me. And yes, it hurts so much more than some nasty online comment because they are coming from people I personally knew.

The worst part was that I knew these assumptions about my work were bullshit. But because I lacked a community of creatives that understood me and the type of work I do, I became more susceptible to other people’s opinions about my work.

So, I pushed myself by becoming more of a workaholic than I already was in order to justify that my work was not a waste of time. In fact, it didn’t occur to me that I lacked a supportive community until Melita Curphy (aka Miss Monster) pointed it out.

She encouraged me to build a better support system before I really harmed my mental and physical health…and before I started hating the very work I loved. I heard her, but I guess I didn’t fully understand her meaning. I figured I could just rely on whatever support I could find online (looking back now, it really isn’t the same thing though).

So, in the middle of 2018, I was really plowing through my research and prototyping for the Modular Phoenix Gauntlets, which I had already been working on since 2016. I was happy with the progress but also felt incredibly empty. I struggled to see the point in my work and I was just carrying on just to complete it…but then what?

No amount of good work I had done in the past could help me see past my own flaws.

Clients and fans kindly praised my work and successes online and on social media, which made me feel like a fraud. The more I told myself, “I should be happy,” the more I also thought, “Maybe all of this is really a huge mistake.”

Being able to create in solitude can be a wonderful thing…but with my increasingly warped perception of myself, that creative solitude I once cherished was becoming a self-destructive loneliness. I truly was my own worst enemy and I knew something needed to change.

And then, one night in October, my friend Jackie Cole asked me to think about going to California to meet up with similarly creative people that I’ve either been working with or have been in touch with. And then another friend, Mark Dubeau, emphasized the importance of meeting people who “get” me.

I deeply valued the opinions from Melita, Jackie, and Mark because I knew they were so devoted to their work as well (and they were all in California). And hearing from all three of them felt like a sign, so I decided I’d take a trip to California. And yes, I told myself that it was for work to stave off the guilt, haha.

On a whim, I booked flights for Los Angeles and San Francisco at the end of October. Was I searching for a way to reconnect with my work again? Was it to find a community that I could relate to? I wasn’t even sure if I would find either.

My entire adult life, I have taken pride in my high level of discipline, ability to execute a project from beginning to end, and knack for predicting outcomes. Any choice I made had a clearly defined purpose, and I was never much for spontaneity.

But the idea of taking a trip to California felt like a huge question mark…and yet, it was a place where I felt like I could find some new questions and answers. I suppose I wanted to meet face-to-face with people who had a fiery passion for their ambitions in the hopes that it may rekindle my own. Needless to say, it was more than I could have ever anticipated.

It was surprisingly cathartic being in the company of so many people who could relate to my kind of work and vice versa. Some of the most fascinating moments was when we would geek out about design process / materials or exchange tips / stories on handling our business(es). Sometimes, it was even just enough to hear, “Hey, I get you,” and to feel like they really did.

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Photography by Yiazyang — Models Jessica Dru and Bryan Forrest — Gauntlet by lumecluster — Dress by Michelle Hebert — Location The Forrest Manor — Creative partners Lilly B. Haven and Creature of Habit —– When I started seeking out a community I could connect with and relate to, it felt both validating and liberating. It was like realizing I wasn’t so crazy after all… I finally felt like I could give myself permission to accept myself and reconnect with my work in a new way.

For the first time in my adult life, I didn’t feel crazy or wrong for doing what I do. They were rooting for me and I was rooting for them. The loneliness I didn’t even know was weighing down on me suddenly felt a little lighter and the stressful pain wrapped around my head and my chest loosened.

When I shared a little about this experience during a Tested podcast with Adam Savage and Mark Dubeau, they said, “welcome to the family,” and I smiled so hard. They probably didn’t know that it took everything in me to hold back my tears.

And it feels so appropriate that photographer Yiaz Yang titled the Sovereign Armor photoshoot series, “The Guardian,” especially when comparing it to the original message behind the Sovereign Armor. And follow her Instagram to see the gradual reveal of the entire series!

It’s not that I disagree with the original meaning when I first wrote it up in 2016, but the photoshoot definitely transformed it. Contextually, the meaning behind the Sovereign armor came from a much more isolated and lonely place, which focused on the painful and often unseen suffering that the creative endures when building and fighting for their dreams.

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I am still the sovereign of my own dreams, but now I do not feel so alone anymore. Seeing this imagery of the guardian and finding the beginnings of a community I can relate to made me realize and appreciate the people who are guarding my dreams by believing in me.

Yes, we are all in the arena actively fighting for our own paths in life, claiming victories where we can, and recovering from our failures along the way. But it’s a wonderful feeling knowing that there’s the chance to cross paths with others who are looking to build and find even greater adventures together…and maybe help patch up each other’s wounds every now and then.

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Photography by Yiazyang — Models Jessica Dru Johnson and Bryan Forrest — Wings by Firefly Path — Sword by Bryan Forrest — Sovereign Armor components by lumecluster — Dress by Michelle Hebert — Location The Forrest Manor — Creative partners Lilly B. Haven and Creature of Habit —– Jessica is the most badass guardian, haha. But honestly, everyone on this team was full of such inspiring creativity. I’m so lucky we could all cross paths and make something new together.

So, here’s to all the amazing people who lifted me up and continue to believe in me! You know who you are! I look forward to doing the same for you and can’t wait to keep adventuring with you!

I hope you all keep building your supportive community of friends and family that continues to lift you up higher. And if you haven’t started or are just starting, don’t worry. It takes time.

Wishing you a happy new year! I can’t wait for 2019!

<3 Melissa

P.S. Mini update about the Modular Phoenix Gauntlets!

For now, I’ll be accepting only a limited number of custom orders for the Modular Phoenix Gauntlets at various times throughout the year (and perhaps years to come, but this could change). Yes, this means there will be limited slots available. If people are not able to get a slot, they will have the chance to submit another request the next time I announce available slots.

Email subscribers will be notified first about when custom order slots become available. You can sign up below or click on this link to join my free newsletter for updates. There will also be a new video update, FAQ, etc. (yep, you only saw the first half of the preview in my first blog post about the gauntlets 

There will also be an update in my Lumecluster shop, where there will be a new selection of made-to-order wearable art, jewelry, etc.

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Modular Phoenix Gauntlets: Fantasy & Modern Fashion Photoshoots (Part 2 of 2) December 9, 2018 09:30

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What this blog post covers:

If you’re new here, I highly recommend checking out this overview of the Phoenix Gauntlet (tiers 1-4), which gives you a preview of the many features along with a demo video and FAQ. In summary, you can get multiple looks and styles in just a pair of gauntlets and cater to a wide range of costume and modern fashion / styling needs.

This blog post demonstrates the modular Phoenix Gauntlets’ versatility in fantasy AND modern fashion styles. You can also see how natural and unrestricted the subject’s hand poses are while wearing the gauntlets.

I collaborated with a photographer and several models/actors, explained how the gauntlets worked, and let them all decide how they wanted to use them and just sat back. I personally love what they came up with <3

The amazing talents featured in this blog post:

Fantasy (select images)

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Model Jessica Dru Johnson. Corset by Kristen “Space Invader” Carr. Lace dress by Creature of Habit. Skirts by Jessica Dru Johnson. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Model Jessica Dru Johnson. Corset by Kristen “Space Invader” Carr. Lace dress by Creature of Habit. Skirts by Jessica Dru Johnson. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Model Jessica Dru Johnson. Corset by Kristen “Space Invader” Carr. Lace dress by Creature of Habit. Gauntlets by Lumecluster. Mask by Lumecluster.

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Model Jessica Dru Johnson and Bryan Forrest. Corset by Kristen “Space Invader” Carr. Skirts by Jessica Dru Johnson. Fabric costume by Christy Haupton. Lace dress by Creature of Habit. Gauntlets by Lumecluster. Helmet/mask by Lumecluster. Sword by Tony Swatton. Other blades by Bryan Forrest.

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Model Jessica Dru Johnson and Bryan Forrest. Corset by Kristen “Space Invader” Carr. Fabric costume by Christy Haupton. Lace dress by Creature of Habit. Skirts by Jessica Dru Johnson. Axe by Bryan Forrest. Gauntlets by Lumecluster. Helmet/Mask by Lumecluster.

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Model Bryan Forrest. Sword by Tony Swatton. Fabric costume by Christy Hauptman. Gauntlets by Lumecluster. Helmet/Mask by Lumecluster.

Modern (select images) – outfit set #1

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Manny Shih. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Manny Shih. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

Outfit set #2

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Manny Shih. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Manny Shih. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actors Yoshi Sudarso, Osric Chau, Peter Adrian Sudarso, Manny Shih. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.


Outfit set #3

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso, Osric Chau, Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

Outfit set #4

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Actor Manny Shih. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Peter Adrian Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actor Yoshi Sudarso. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

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Actors Yoshi Sudarso, Manny Shih, Peter Adrian Sudarso, Osric Chau. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

Mermen

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Actors Manny Shih, Peter Adrian Sudarso, Yoshi Sudarso, Osric Chau. Mermaid fins by Finfolk productions. Gauntlets by Lumecluster.

I hope all of these offered some styling inspiration. There is SO MUCH MORE from these photoshoots so I encourage you to see the rest on photographer Yia Yang’s website. They’re all gorgeous!

CLICK HERE to see the entire fantasy fashion photoshoot

CLICK HERE to see the entire modern fashion photoshoot.

If you liked this, then it would be great if you could fill out this pre-order questionnaire. Here, you’ll get to express your color interests, see pricing options, submit questions, etc (CLOSED)

NOTE: This is NOT the actual pre-order. This is only a questionnaire.

The more responses I get, the faster I’ll be able to open this up for pre-order (beginning of 2019). So, please share this article with friends if you think they’ll like this too! This does not guarantee a spot or lock you into the actual pre-order in 2019.

CLICK HERE TO FILL OUT THE PRE-ORDER QUESTIONNAIRE (CLOSED)

And if you haven’t already done so, check out the overview of the Phoenix Gauntlets (tiers 1-4) that shows a preview demo and highlights most of the features. You’ll also be able to see some of the images on my Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.

<3 Melissa


2017 Year in review in photos: a special Sovereign Armor photoshoot December 30, 2017 11:30

Lumecluster Sovereign Armor Anshul Mathur Photoshoot

2017 was a very emotional and challenging year full of high highs and very low lows. Sure, it was a wonderful year filled with amazing memories and achievements like:

  • finally earning enough to upgrade my workshop with 3D printers, vacuum form machine, and other equipment
  • making time to redesign my fantasy armor and mask shop offerings
  • diving deeper into bridging fantasy and functional costume armor design
  • creating multiple lightweight gauntlet prototypes with improved articulation
  • Adam Savage praising my armor and making my work go viral (which broke my site for nearly a week…)
  • having the freedom to select clients I want to work with
  • creating my interpretation of Ironheart’s armor for a Marvel commission
  • finally having a stronger sense of self and meeting more like minded collaborators

But I’ve struggled with settling into my new skin as a fantasy armor designer after I shifted my focus to armor back in 2016. As I steadily climb higher, so much of me keeps fearing I’m going to betray who I am, what I believe in, or the people who have continued to believe in me.

In some instances, there really were people who thought I changed for the worse and that I abandoned what originally made Lumecluster. That was a brutal blow that really tore me apart for a while. Worst of all, I hate it that I let other people’s opinions make me question everything I was pursuing. It made me wonder whether my newly evolved self was the “correct” choice.

Is this really the best direction? Is this truly what I want to be? Am I making a huge mistake? I have no clue, but I do what I hope is my very best at the time and so far it seems to be working out.

With all the ups and downs, 2017 was the year I really needed to don my Sovereign Armor.

I clung to its message because it was one of the few things that helped me get back on track whenever the trolls would derail me or help snap me out of my perfectionist “never good enough” thoughts. But it also helped remind me of the people who have always stood by me and lifted me up during my lowest moments.

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The meaning behind the Sovereign Armor

And so, I wanted this year in review to be a bit different. Instead of writing out what happened in 2017 in detail, I thought it would be more interesting to have a visual gallery of the Sovereign Armor. And what I loved about this photoshoot is that I felt like it really portrayed a lot of how I felt throughout the year. I’ll leave it up to your interpretation 

I’m looking forward to 2018 and focusing more on refining Lumecluster’s message and new wearable art offerings.

Many thanks to the amazingly talented people behind the photoshoot:

Click the video below to see the Sovereign Armor movement.


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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

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PHOTOGRAPHER Anshul Mathur (afleetingimage) — MODEL / MAKEUP ARTIST Brianna Ashley Chin — DRESS by Megan Dellario (Breakers Cosplay) — SOVEREIGN ARMOR by Melissa Ng (Lumecluster)

Go to the gallery section if you want to see more images from the photoshoot. Happy new year!

<3 Melissa


The 3D Printed Sovereign Armor / Marisha Ray photoshoot, shop update & what’s next? (Part 2 of 2) August 7, 2016 08:30

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I’ll keep this blog post short since I’d love for you to go check out the gorgeous Geek & Sundry photoshoot with actor Marisha Ray. But before that, I only have two quick things to share.

First, this experience has inspired me to keep digging deeper in finding a balance between fantasy and functional armor design. 

I encourage aspiring artists of all types to do the same or at least take the time to explore the possibilities that history can teach you. Ian LaSpina’s (Knyght Errant) recent video makes a great argument on the value of fantasy armor design grounded in history.

I admit I had many doubts on whether or not I could create a historically grounded design without sacrificing the fantasy element. And with the huge success of Felicia Day’s Dreamer Regalia, there were also times I felt unbearable pressure and fear that I would not be able to make the Sovereign armor equally good in its own way.

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Felicia Day wearing the fantastical Dreamer Regalia and Marisha Ray wearing the functional, medieval-inspired Sovereign Armor. Photographer: Eric Anderson

In the end, both the Dreamer Regalia and Sovereign Armor are creations I’m truly proud of because they’ve opened up a new world for me. Needless to say, my creative spirit is itching to dive back in.

For those of you who are new here, I share a lot more about this in The Making of the Sovereign Armor blog/video post.

Second, I’ve added a new Sovereign Mask and Resilience Mask pendants in my shop.

It may not be life-size armor, but look how tiny and cute it is!!

QUICK RECAP! What is the Sovereign Armor? I made this in honor of the creatives out there who know that, even though it’s empowering to be the ruler of your dreams and creations, you also know how incredibly lonely the journey can often be…Because it’s yours. All the frustrations, failures, revelations, and successes. Only you truly know the struggle you put into it. Everyone else can only imagine. It’s easy to critique, judge, and assume. It’s not easy to keep creating the things that can only come from you.

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Lumecluster Resilience Mask pendant

Now, please go check out Geek & Sundry’s awesome photoshoot with Marisha Ray.

You can also read the little interview I did with Geek & Sundry’s Jackie Cole on the Sovereign Armor.

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3D Printed Sovereign Armor design: Melissa Ng (Lumecluster) | Historical Armor Consultant: Ian LaSpina (Knyght Errant) | Photographer: Eric Anderson | MUA: Misti Dawn | Model: Marisha Ray | PA: Joey Haeck | PA: Andrea Liu | Coordinator: Jackie Cole

So, what’s next? Another armor?

Maybe. Maybe not. You’ll just have to wait and see ?

Whether or not I am, you’ll see hints of a new challenge and direction for Lumecluster on my Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter. I’m currently developing new techniques to improve my design efficiency and most of what I’m creating will likely be in-house from now on…you’ll see what I mean soon enough.

But for now, I’d like to take a brief breather and jump back to making jewelry, masks, and probably more gauntlets. Because gauntlets…:D

<3 Melissa


Felicia Day / 3D printed Dreamer Regalia armor photoshoot + battling impostor syndrome (Part 3 of 3) February 15, 2016 08:30

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QUICK RECAP. What is the 3D printed Dreamer Regalia armor? The Shapeways-sponsored Dreamer Regalia armor (with 3D scanning provided by Cokreeate) was created to inspire people to fight for their creative ambitions and to believe we have what it takes to make something amazing.

It symbolizes the protection for our dreams and is being created in honor of the Dreamer within each of us. The Dreamer that wants to give life to the imagination, make a difference, change things, push boundaries, and not conform to the status quo. Actor and Geek & Sundry founder Felicia Day had all of these qualities and more, which made her the perfect match for the armor.
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Before I share my final thoughts on the amazing response we got on the Dreamer Regalia armor photoshoot, I thought I’d put together a little archive of the most vital links covering the Dreamer Regalia journey for anyone who wants the full details:

  1. On lacking “proper artistic credentials” & 3D printing the Dreamer Regalia armor for actor Felicia Day (provides a project overview, armor design timelapses, and evolution of my art)
  2. 228 hours later, the 3D printed Dreamer Regalia Armor for actor Felicia Day is finished! (covers painting, finishing, and finished armor preview)
  3. Shapeways interview series where I share my process in greater detail
  4. Geek & Sundry photoshoot / video + my interview with them (click here to see the entire gallery)

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My final thoughts on the Dreamer Regalia journey…. Holy shit.

The response to the Dreamer Regalia armor reveal was beyond anything I would have ever imagined. I’m still having a hard time believing the amazing reaction after I’d spent so many days mentally preparing myself for the worst…

In fact, right before the photoshoot reveal on Geek & Sundry, I was staring up at the ceiling thinking to myself, “No one’s gonna like it. Everyone’s gonna hate it. Well…maybe a few people will like it. That would be nice.”

*Looks at the clock and realizes it’s almost time for the reveal.*

“No wait…OMG are you crazy? DAMMIT, THEY NEED TO TAKE IT DOWN. NO ONE SHOULD SEE IT. IT’S GONNA BE AWFUL. NOOOOOO. AAAAH.” My impostor syndrome was strong that night and I very nearly had a breakdown.

And then my social media notifications and email started going haywire. I didn’t look for a good half hour or so because I didn’t want to see how ugly it must have gotten. I thought, “They must be telling me to go to hell and to never make art again. Yeah.”

My breathing was strained with anxiety, my chest felt painfully tight, my face was burning hot, my hands were shaking…and then I finally looked.

Sure, there were expected criticisms here and there. But overall, there was an overwhelming amount of kindness, love, and support for my work…which I have never really experienced before.

“At no point am I ever threatened by people who question who I am, or why I like the things I do, or my legitimacy. Because I know who I am very strongly, and I think that’s what geek culture can reinforce.” —Felicia Day

For the longest time, the “authorities” in my life told me I could never be an artist. That art was a waste of time. That I could never create art that moved others. That I would be a laughing stock. And yet here I was receiving an enormous amount of appreciation for my art for the first time in my life.

I burst into tears. I watched the Geek & Sundry video and heard Felicia’s uplifting words and then I cried some more. I can’t help it that I’m sensitive…

As I write this, there’s a part of me that’s wondering if I’m still dreaming. Everyday, I used to fear that moment someone would call me out and tell me I have no right to be doing any of this. But then I realized…those people don’t matter because they didn’t really give a shit about my kind of art. My art wasn’t for them.

What matters is knowing what art I truly wanted to create and understanding who cared about my kind of creations…and then putting it out there.

Heck, I know my art isn’t for everyone and I don’t want it to be for everyone. Because if I tried to create for everyone, then my work would touch no one. My work is meant to appeal to some people and that’s more than enough. And I’m thankful I’m finally understanding who those people are.

So, know who it is you want to create for. But above all, know what it is you dream and geek out and obsess about creating. Chances are someone out there cares about it just as much as you.

<3 Melissa